D and F..

wat else? the title concluded my semester 1 exam results! i can't believe dis is d outcome wat i did for d last three months. Determination and hard work staying back till late night juz to study those crap. i started to wonder am i suitable for dis programme? am i really not coping to this new environment? im not gonna give myself another chance this time. My results was out of my expectations and i think my style of studying last minute wasn't working quite well in Alevels.

back to the form 5 memories.. during one of the semester test as usual, i flunk every one of my science subject. i did not understand why i obtained such an 'impressive'' results. Next i begin to think where did it went wrong. i mean which way of method of studying went wrong. in addition my dad scolded me for doing badly in the exam. and proabably the excuse i gave him is i din do my best which i really din't. finally, right after the hols of mid year ended, i went back to skul as usual. wat was difference was dis time i paid more attention to my studies. i reduce my indulgement in outing with friends. like wat thenesh owez said..''study lar..no more frenz addy''. i had no choice but to do dat. im ruining my future if i din do well in spm. Well..my study plan started off well. most of days i will be staying back in d skuls to study and revise those that i missed during the 1st half year and even f4 syllabus. well..i stick to d study schedule until the end of spm. anyway my results din came out as i wish but i was pretty satisfy with it. ofcourse the 1st thought after getting dat results wasn't going so well but after one or 2 days..i was feeling quite contented because the As that i got is all the science subjects. besides im pretty sure im interested in doing science related subjects in the future. the conclusion was i will nvr do last minute study again.

Again..im doing the same old thing here in Alevels which is last minute studying. i felt helpless in the exam hall when the exam was held. i personally think that the questions were easy but i juz couldn't answer it. i have the theory, i have the formulae, i have the way to solve it but i juz couldn't. dis is where the questions come in. why? why do u noe how to do it but u cant answer it? and the reason is i din do enough of exercise! dat indirectly causes me to panic in the exam. i din try to attemp the questions b4 dat and i din noe how to tackle it. yeah.failure.

there's a few time i asked myself when will i start to concentrate? my answer will owez be tomorrow. LOL..yes. that's wat a so called typical teenager will say when he or she is throwned with such a question. haha. neville, rite? :) once a friend ask me what u gonna do in the future? what r u gonna study? my answer to it is either medicine or pharmacy! LOL.. den he/she broke out laughing at me saying that i don't look that 'holy'.ahaha. it din actually bother me much for wat or he/she said. i don't care. im juz gonna go my own way and do it!

For the past following days, i have been in the library from the sun rises till evening(lol...i noe the sun hasn't go dawning at this time). anyway it has been a plentiful day during the time in d library. i can't do anytime but study in the library. so yeah.i concentrate well here and although occasionally my mind might have gone sumwhere but wheee it din occur quite often.

now the only problem is how am i gonna tell my parents. will they get disappointed with my results? hmm..problem problem! haha. anyway the results will be sent to dem in a few days time via post. i think war is starting soon which i predictably can't win much this time. anyway life juz keep going. i will not stop juz because of this particular exam. i'm going for the best now!

and sorry to kok soon and thenesh.LOL. i cudn't go for the mamak ystd wasn't bcuz i was watching tv. it was bcuz i have promised my mum to fetch my bro from skul and i was talking in front of her. i can't simply tell her i'm not gonna fetch my bro and i go to mamak now. sorry.

kla..dats all for dis. till next time. XD.c ya.

proabably i have no mood for mcdonalds now...:(