D and F..

wat else? the title concluded my semester 1 exam results! i can't believe dis is d outcome wat i did for d last three months. Determination and hard work staying back till late night juz to study those crap. i started to wonder am i suitable for dis programme? am i really not coping to this new environment? im not gonna give myself another chance this time. My results was out of my expectations and i think my style of studying last minute wasn't working quite well in Alevels.

back to the form 5 memories.. during one of the semester test as usual, i flunk every one of my science subject. i did not understand why i obtained such an 'impressive'' results. Next i begin to think where did it went wrong. i mean which way of method of studying went wrong. in addition my dad scolded me for doing badly in the exam. and proabably the excuse i gave him is i din do my best which i really din't. finally, right after the hols of mid year ended, i went back to skul as usual. wat was difference was dis time i paid more attention to my studies. i reduce my indulgement in outing with friends. like wat thenesh owez said..''study lar..no more frenz addy''. i had no choice but to do dat. im ruining my future if i din do well in spm. Well..my study plan started off well. most of days i will be staying back in d skuls to study and revise those that i missed during the 1st half year and even f4 syllabus. well..i stick to d study schedule until the end of spm. anyway my results din came out as i wish but i was pretty satisfy with it. ofcourse the 1st thought after getting dat results wasn't going so well but after one or 2 days..i was feeling quite contented because the As that i got is all the science subjects. besides im pretty sure im interested in doing science related subjects in the future. the conclusion was i will nvr do last minute study again.

Again..im doing the same old thing here in Alevels which is last minute studying. i felt helpless in the exam hall when the exam was held. i personally think that the questions were easy but i juz couldn't answer it. i have the theory, i have the formulae, i have the way to solve it but i juz couldn't. dis is where the questions come in. why? why do u noe how to do it but u cant answer it? and the reason is i din do enough of exercise! dat indirectly causes me to panic in the exam. i din try to attemp the questions b4 dat and i din noe how to tackle it. yeah.failure.

there's a few time i asked myself when will i start to concentrate? my answer will owez be tomorrow. LOL..yes. that's wat a so called typical teenager will say when he or she is throwned with such a question. haha. neville, rite? :) once a friend ask me what u gonna do in the future? what r u gonna study? my answer to it is either medicine or pharmacy! LOL.. den he/she broke out laughing at me saying that i don't look that 'holy'.ahaha. it din actually bother me much for wat or he/she said. i don't care. im juz gonna go my own way and do it!

For the past following days, i have been in the library from the sun rises till evening(lol...i noe the sun hasn't go dawning at this time). anyway it has been a plentiful day during the time in d library. i can't do anytime but study in the library. so yeah.i concentrate well here and although occasionally my mind might have gone sumwhere but wheee it din occur quite often.

now the only problem is how am i gonna tell my parents. will they get disappointed with my results? hmm..problem problem! haha. anyway the results will be sent to dem in a few days time via post. i think war is starting soon which i predictably can't win much this time. anyway life juz keep going. i will not stop juz because of this particular exam. i'm going for the best now!

and sorry to kok soon and thenesh.LOL. i cudn't go for the mamak ystd wasn't bcuz i was watching tv. it was bcuz i have promised my mum to fetch my bro from skul and i was talking in front of her. i can't simply tell her i'm not gonna fetch my bro and i go to mamak now. sorry.

kla..dats all for dis. till next time. XD.c ya.

proabably i have no mood for mcdonalds now...:(

EFIL

Life! wats life?

was it sumtg that give us challenges? sumtg that cherish us? sumtg that light up the day?

or was it sumtg that torture us? sumtg that make us collapse? sumtg that keep us busy?

is life that hard and difficult?

not too hard for me to accept realistic facts.

but why is life so cruel?

giving me hope. giving me joy?

but u took it away within split seconds.

the pain wasn't juz mentally or physically.

it was intensing pricking pain in my soul.

cant be explained. cant be feel by any1 but ME.

wud life be any better without sum parts of life?

wud it be any better if i was born retarded?

ders still greater challenges 2mrw.

i shall remain calm and work things out.

no use crying for the past and the impossible.

im not gonna lose hope here.not gonna give up. not gonna surrender.

im feeling very tired. i nid a pillow to lay off. 

probably bcuz i woke up too early 2day.XD.

From introvert to schizoid..

probably u will be wondering why i have such thought regarding the title. well lemme define it now. introvert will mean a person who is unable to socialize, mix with others or will react shyly in front of the crowd. on the other hand, schizoid is the next stage of introvert or i shud say the more serious case of introvert that might lead to the neccessary of receiving a treatment. 

On one particular night, i was chatting with one of my frenz who have always been real quiet and unsociable. she told me that she was an introvert and after knowing the word schizoid and now she claim that she has schizoid. she said she PERFRECTLY fit to the symptons of one having schizoid according to wikipedia. i personally think that she is juz getting herself into trouble or maybe she is too stressful in her life with some reasons which shoudn't be told here. she even think that she needed a counsellor or perhaps a therapist. anyway i really hope she is fine. :) 

Besides i was really glad dat u got yr 2 best frenz dis year which u previously cudn't find one. btw gud luck in yr on coming SPM. All d best. and pls DON'T misunderstood be that i was trying to recommend myself that u claim that it was a joke. i din! hahahahahahahhahahahaa........................

GUDluck! ^^

the day right after biology test.

ahhh..wat a relieved after the bio exam ended 2day. the last minute exam supposedly elson was gonna yell '' summer..summer..summer''(hsm2). well..he din do it anyway. Probably bcuz the invigilator call him to shut up.LOL.. try during AS..elson. haha. 

owh yeah.i actually drove to the college 2day on my own. evrything was juz fine 2day. nothing 'bad' happen.haha. but WOW..1 dude and 7 duttes were in my car on the way to sunway. it was fun fetching frenz der as it wud be more encouraging. at least not alone like it was in d morning. OMG...June! u actually freaked me out at d round-about when u complained abt d aircond.haha. But 'thanks' for all d complains. i guess i learned to drive better after all d complains. LOL. cheers!

in sunway, me, rowan, bobo. yuen and claire decided to watch angels and demons. the movie was quite nice. a few scene was unpredictable and overall it was interesting. 

after that, at ard 4, i decided to go back as i was f'''ing tiring. anw upon reaching home, suddenly sumtg came across my mind..i went to the basketball court to look whether the high skul's frenz was der or not. well...they were not der. dey went to chin's hse. so yeah..eeventually i joined dem at chin's hse. sorry chin for self-invited. emm..we played foosball, ping pong and badminton over der but we din get to play badminton for long. the rains came and with terrible wind condition, we din manged to play for at least one hr. hmm..

life come and go..

well..im currently in taylors library now. not to mention wat i supposed to do in d library but i managed to squeeze in sum time for dis post. Dis probably will be my last one b4 d semester test. for d past few weeks, i have been drilling on my textbooks and doing exam-related questions. anyway time was really precious for me and i find it real insufficient as i get to study for one chapter a day although i stayed late until 8 evryday. if life wud have been easier for me, it might take me think twice on taking dis recognized difficult course but i think dis will give me a better foundation in my future careeer choices.

on d other hand, attending college is so much fun and learning is juz part of it. making so many friends in college is juz as fun. the most interesting time during college hrs is when come to break time. Our typical pm11 class trend is d 1st 15 mins is for lunch and d next 45 will be in d AC's pool place or either FTZ's cybercafe. it was kinda fun playing pool everyday although i find it boring recently, probably bucz i keep losing to Rowan. But well i managed to beat him 2day. strictly speaking i have beaten him 8 time in total but he has beaten me more than 20 times i think. so yeah it was a huge difference of level in term of pool between both of us. haha.

hmm..yeah..AC's food has driven me crazy in d sense as i will owez order d same food from d same stall all d time. IT will be d maggie goreng! sumtimes 'gai fan'. yeah, i think d choice of food that i have eaten since the college starte can be counted by fingers. LOL.

haha.. if i were to tell dis here..i think most of my friends that know me wud be laughing like mad now.hahaha.. my friend jasvinder has told me about a Japanese class. and the worst thing is im actaully interested and i think im gonna join him and Elson after approaching my parents. haha! well..my high skul's friend probably will be thinking ''u shud have taken it when u were born cuz u r a japs''haha.

with dis opportunity i will like to send my regards to all my high skuls friends, ns buddies, and primary skuls friends! All d best.. sorry kiran i cud not join u all 2day for bball as i was still in d college. remember to ajak next time ah.

okla...time to go. dats all for now. bye!:)

mcdonald still d best choice in my life...!